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Name: Sarah
Interests: i love eyeliner. i love starbucks. i love tanning outside. i have super small hands and feet. im a horrible driver and i love it! i drive barefoot. im addicted to whitening my teeth. i dont like bad teeth at all.. they make me sqirm. im very ticklish. i love to run, but only if i have a choice, otherwise i hate it. i hate girls. i hate fake people. i love my sunglasses. i love to laugh. i love life.
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Member Since:
11/14/2005
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| i really hate this..this xanga thing.
it is just a permanent catalog of what is in my past. and personally, what is in my past needs to stay there. but im glad the entire world can view it on the internet. sweet.
i only come here when i feel like.. well weird.
i feel weird.
something big is going to happen. good, bad? i dunno.
im happy.
happy is a good place to be.
that's all. | | |
| i really hate this..this xanga thing.
it is just a permanent catalog of what is in my past. and personally, what is in my past needs to stay there. but im glad the entire world can view it on the internet. sweet.
i only come here when i feel like.. well weird.
i feel weird.
something big is going to happen. good, bad? i dunno.
im happy.
happy is a good place to be.
that's all. | | |
| wow.
never thought that i would come back to xanga but hey.
things change.
but more importantly people change.
im not excluded from that.
so my life is pretty much shit.
not gunna lie.
lots of things have happened since that last update.
xanga always proves what a fucking idiot i am.
i look back at when i first started this stupid thing, my last entry, and who i am today, and i just get a fucking kick out of myself.
how could i honestly believe that things go always how you plan for them to go?
HOW could i possibly let myself slip back into that trap?
well it happened.
so here i am.
nothing.
absolutely nothing.
i now have come to the conclusion (thanks to some very unfortunate events) that no one cares.
i really dont like myself.
i guess it always comes back to that.
First in jr high where i practically would do anything to be liked, then the anorexia, then the drinking, then the drugs, then back to not eating, then now....coming full circle and really not getting anywhere. and since i really dont like myself i really have no problem at all disrespecting myself and it makes me absolutely sick.
just sick.
i hate it.
& i hate myself for it.
im never going to have this great group of friends that i always hang out with, that i can count on to be there for me. A group of people who will hold me accountable for my actions, who i can just laugh my ass off with and just know that even after high school is over we will still keep in touch.
if you have that...hold onto it.
because there are people like me who envy it everyday.
soo nothing got accomplished here.
just sarah whining about her life.
..jesus. | | |
| so i have abandoned xanga for myspace.
get over it.
so i went to this little town in south east texas called Sabine Pass and it changed my life.
plain and simple.
i found out a lot things about myself.
1. in this world, there are alot of things that arent fair. WE as humans are owed happiness. We have to find it for ourselves.
2. my house is big. despite how small it may seem sometimes.
3. i came home even more in love with jordon than when i left.
4. i make friends easy...ie: Ricky, Cody, and Jill. :)
that is all for now.
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| to MY seniors--
there is just way too much to say to all of you just right here.
but people leave,
and i get left.
it's so hard for me this year.. because you all are so dear to my heart.
it will definately be a big loss for me in my life and i will miss you all everyday.
You all are so amazing and talented and i wish the best for you all this coming fall.
i have to stop typing now because i will most definately start to cry..
i love you all.
"i hope you dance.."
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